im so fucking exhausted. its just so bad. i dont really have much to say. its just so fucking bad. i wish i got better. i know the mature thing is to follow all the directions to "just sleep more" for as long as it takes until the doctors realize its something worse (i HAVE been sleeping.) but i just want to crawl into a ball and cry and blast music like a middle schooler and ignore the world. you can hear in my voice how exhausted i am. i dont know how much longer i can go like this. i dont want to harm myself im just tired.